its funny

I had so many ambitions for this break. There are so many things that I said I wanted to do and damn near promised myself I would get done. I always figured I had plenty of time. But as the days and weeks passed, and as friends started to go back, I realized school isn't that far away and I didn't do any of the things I pretty much swore I would do.

I am happy I did get to do somethings. I got to work on the way I do my devos (by actually doing them) and on the way I approach my relationship with God in general. I'm really happy that Ive gotten a chance to sort things out. I feel that I found a way to use my time alone productively instead of spending it in retarded self loathing. Even if that productivity amounts to me making insanely embarrassing youtube videos, I did gain something from it. I think I've gotten better at guitar. I hope that when I'm at school I can find (or make) some time to keep that up.

It makes me a little irate to think that I didn't get done any of the things I planned to do. But on the other hand, its funny that I didn't plan on doing the things I got done. I couldn't have thought of a better way to spend my break.

And I know, I'm talking like its already over and we still have another week but this is pretty much it for me. Next week is all shopping, preparations, and doctors/dentists appointments (and my birthday :) then its right back to work.

I say it every time but I really think this semester is going to be different. Or at least I'm gonna try. By golly, I'm gonna try. Its the best I can do.