welcome glory cadence...

Alrighty, new blog debut.

http://glorycadence.tumblr.com

just stole this from you florence

But I totally found my future daughter's middle name.

In other news, making the switch to tumblr very soon :)

edit: If anyone steals this name before I have the opportunity to give it to my baby, I will hunt you down :)

This month already 2 of my friends have passed the NCLEX exam and are real official nurses. I just get so proud of my friends when they accomplish their goals. I feel like a parent.

This got me thinking of how important it is to know that someone is proud of you. I, as well as many others I know, come from a culture where it's not the norm to hear that your parents are proud. I didn't hear it very often and I still don't, but when you do and that person really means it, it truly touches the heart.

I remember when I first found out about God's affections towards me and that He is proud of me. When I make decisions that move His heart, He's proud of me. When I choose to obey Him and surrender my plans for His, He's so happy. I love that. Just imagine how much it touched my heart to find out that He's proud.

So even though my parents aren't all that proud of me and my choice to stay here doesn't make sense to them, my poppa's proud of me. And that means more than anything. I'm scared but kind of excited to live this life of adventure. I'm gonna see things.. It's gonna get crazy but I'm definitely excited.

its been a while

I haven't blogged in quite some time. Its late, and I'm only up because I ate less than an hour ago and if I try to sleep it won't happen.

I don't know who, if anyone, still reads this blog...maybe someone still has me on their google reader. Who knows. I thought about getting a Tumblr as I start my new adventures. If only I knew how to use it...

Anyways, there was a point to this. Something my Papa told me today. He said, "There's no 'you can't'(s) in My Love".

How many times have I been told I can't do something? Too many to count. And not just in the sense that there are things I shouldn't do but that there are things I can't do. Some people can do them but not me.

I've believed that lie for so long, I sometimes forget its a lie. So when I ask my Father to reveal His love to me, He says, "There are no 'you can'ts' in My Love. Phil. 4:13." I can do all things. I will do greater things than Jesus did. That's a promise (John 14:12). So when I tell you, I'm gonna lay hands on the sick, pray for them, and see them healed, you better believe it. And whether you believe it or not, it has happened already, and will continue to happen.

I'm just so excited for this next chapter in my life. I'm about to embark on a life that just seems to make no sense to the natural mind. I don't understand it but that's okay. Actually, that's perfect. Its the best place to be. If I don't understand it, my only option is to trust in the Lord with all my heart (Proverbs 3:5-6).

next chapter

College is officially over. This is another one of those points in my life I never REALLY thought about reaching until I got here. I never used to be able to think about my life past about the age of 16. Not that I never thought I'd get to my 20s but I could just never see it.

Maybe it's because I'm going to see and experience things I never could have imagined in my wildest dreams. I hope so. It's more than probable and has already started.

I'm on a journey and this is just a turning of pages to the next chapter.

something

Here's something I just realized about myself, I'm compulsive about vacuuming my carpet if I clean my room but it always leaves me feeling itchy. I don't like to shower at night though so I guess I'm just going to stay itchy until morning.

more than a month later

Guatemala was amazing. I can't really describe it. I saw miracles and people having their lives changed. It was incredible.

Okay..where am I now...

I'm one month from graduation (exactly). I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life. Not that I'm at a total loss for ideas. Especially because no matter who I talk to, or close (or not) we may be, everyone seems to have a suggestion. I know what I want to do but my parents would rather I didn't.

I have always loved music. I can't imagine my life without it. I was denied the opportunity to pursue my passion so many times. I went to the high school my parents wanted instead of LaGuardia or PPA, I went to college to study pre-med instead of music ("You can't make any money being a musician"), and now, I am weeks away from a BA in History and Minor in Biology. I've finished all my pre-reqs for med school. I could study up, take the MCATS, and go from there. In all honesty though, I really don't want to.

All I've ever wanted was to play. I'm done with college. They can't force me to go to grad, even though they're trying. I know my purpose in life. I can't waste it at the feet of giants I may never conquer, while leaning on an economy that is crumbling. I want to use my talents for God's glory, I know that's why I was made. I know where I belong. The hardest part of all of this is explaining that to them. How can I possibly explain this to them?

Somehow, I thought it would be easier having parents who are Christians. Not that I've experienced the other side, but this seems to be equally as difficult.

I need a miracle.