in dire need

It is finally Winter Break! I'm so excited. There are so many things I want to do..
But I have a problem. No money. I really wanted to get a job for this break. I'd been applying and sending resumes to places since like October but I got no responses. It makes me sad. But on the other hand I can spend some time with my friends and on my music. I haven't had any real time this semester to spend with either of my guitars. Any musical time spent was usually with the IV bass :/ which isn't bad [its better than nothing] but its just not the same. I have SUCH a deep seeded passion for music. It's kind of hard to explain and sometimes even hard for me to understand.

How can someone be given such a passion for something that they may not necessarily be called to? Does that make sense? I mean, I guess it's understandable for someone to be so into something that may have nothing to do with their future life. But I guess I just think in my case, it makes no sense. Then again, just because I have the passion doesn't mean I have the talent.

Seems like that's the problem with lots of things in my life. I just don't understand passion without ability. It makes no sense to me...

That was a wild tangent. Ugh! Anyways, I wish I had a guitar, I get most inspired when I don't have the necessary tools...its unfair. I got a ride home from school so I couldn't take up space with my guitar BUT since Denise is going to Africa next week, I get to use her guitar while I'm here and she's gone...which means for the rest of winter break :)
I think this is gonna be good.